Cannot Cry

I cannot cry
I don’t know why
but every time I try to
no salty tears come to my eyes,
just a jaded sight of you
It is no lie
I cannot cry
and every time I want to
I scruntch my face and curl my nose
and think worse thoughts
and hold my breath.
I cannot cry
Dont ask me why
It doesnt seem that normal
that I should be the one with you
Everything you put me through
You think I would have learned by now
But you’re so wrong, you know,
I cant even make the sound.
I cannot cry
I dont know why
when every time you fall through

2001